And like apparently technology is ruining the english language and like that's what my lecturer told me when he said my essay was like really good but my handwriting was so terrible it looked like a forth grade boy's and was I like aware that in the 19th century a woman's penmanship was like one of the most attractive things about her?
So I tell him yes I'm like aware of that but sometimes when I've had three hours sleep and only two hours to write a beautifully constructed essay on neoliberalism and like the stylistic devices of three poems I sometimes forget to like curl my L's and like dot my I's. The same way I sometimes forget that just because you're white and male means you're like, always entitled to shove your opinion on how I should speak, on how I should write down my, like, throat. He tells me that if I spent less time on the internet I would say 'like' less and write better and that I am a 'smart girl' but the way I talk makes me like, 'sound dumb'.
And I, you know, ask six questions in my criminal law tutorial and all of them begin with, you know, sorry. And I crack my knuckles when I'm, you know, nervous and talking to people, like ex's at parties, or classes full of law students or, you know, my lecturers. And I always offer my opinions as, you know, questions so people can always disagree and sometimes I just don't finish my sentences because I'm so used to being, you know, cut off.
And I guess I often say I guess even when I'm not guessing and I know what I'm saying. Because say something someone doesn't like and I guess, then seem to feel obliged to put you in your place. And I spent a lot of time keeping my mouth shut because I guess, I always guessed and that didn't really leave much room for being sure. But this is, I guess, just how I talk when I am nervous and uncomfortable and, I guess I'm sorry but I also guess that maybe it's just as much a reflection of you as it is me.
So like, you know, I guess, after my lecturer tells me to stop spending time on the internet, I crack my knuckles, nod, then return home to write a like, you know, blog post about it.